presenting you the N2s of sherwood educare!

he said it was his new hairstyle:)

the pizza that they made. i cut the toppings!

my classroom:)




sherman, who pronounces 'four' as 'pour' and refers bolster as 'baobao' with a slang




only 4 yrs old




that malay girl learns mandarin




curly eunice and sotong ray




the most popular learning corner




the second last boy, ray, held the wrong side of his drawing




their pizza




she wanted to hold the pizza too




the pizza they made

she said that was a bdae cake

toot toot train

another pizza

playing!

mi fav boy xuyang, and chubby cheeks alycia




they love the 2 ponytails




he said that was a pizza for me




she has fishball cheeks:)

the autistic child, john, and gisele

their pizza:)

my class!

hi all. my apologies cos it's gonna be all about mi job job job agn. alrite, i noe it's getting boring, posting issues on mi job all the time. but pardon me, because there is nothing else for me to write on anymore. pathetic, aint it? from here, we can actualli infer that this girl, by the name of Ng Wee Leng, age 16, constitutes A LIFELESS NERD. in fact, she feels tt she is living in her own world.


i realli ponder sometimes, if my frens still do remember this crazy-girl-used-to-be, since im so tied down by mi work right now and hardly able to catch up with them. it's like.. i've totally lost contact with almost all of them? wonder if my name has already vanished and disappeared from their minds. by looking at mi fone, i realised i've only used 126 msgs so far. it really amazes me since mi msgs shd haf usualli exceeded by the 25th day of each month. i seem to be living in a world surrounded by 4 walls.


i didnt write this to blame anyone. i noe mi frens are busy. like preparing for promos and stuff. if i were to steal those precious time away, im just being a selfish brat. yes and speaking about purpose, im just feeling kinda depressed due to some mishaps in mi job you see. whenever i needed someone to confide in badly, i wrecked mi brain but just couldnt come up with a single name. so here i am, ranting in my blog.


things are so damn screwed up in mi work. and im like at a total loss of what to do although i noe i can onli endure, so as to occupy mi life with meaning. however, u cannot imagine how terrible i feel whenever im being left out in the conversations of ALL the other teachers. it's not like i didnt give an attempt. i did try, to begin a conversation, but all i get in return are short and swift replies.


so, it's realli not surprising to find me isolating myself during teachers' breaks. to tell u the truth, deep within mi heart, i sincerely hope to noe them better, and treat them just like how i treat any of my other frens. who doesnt hope to gain acceptance in a new environment? i bet they must haf thought im some arrogant and anti-social greenhorn. there was a meet-the-parents session today, and that feeling i experienced was awful alrite. i knew practically nothing the other teachers were talking about. i tried to fit in, i joined in the laughters, yet, i still felt invincible. i felt like an idiot who was luffing away pretentiously. they did not even bother to look towards mi direction when they talk. hello. i haf feelings too alrite? cant anyone of you notice mi presence? in fact, i almost broke down todae. but still held back mi tears in the end. it could haf been damn embarrassing if i didnt do that.


besides, i haf a woman's instinct that one day, i will discover the teachers backstabbing me. rmb what i said abt tt tcher who was sacked? she suffered this identical mishap. how can i not worry? if they dislike me, they can at least like tell me where mi problems lie? how can i change when i dont even noe what pisses you all off? the reason they kept me there must haf been due to the lack of teachers. just look at the way they treat me. totalli like a fool whose feelings nobody cared abt. sigh. but look. the kids still need a teacher. and i cant bear to part with them so soon either.


anyway, watched campus superstar just now. i thot tt benjamin would clinch the overall winner! but sadly, he didnt. :( and u noe, i realli envied the bond tt held the contestants strongly together, as well as the closeness they shared. the big hugs and encouragement they gave.. the tears they shed for one another.. these say it all. dont u think it's such a blessing to see a bunch of great frens sharing ur sorrows or joys together? how sweet it is to be embraced by a familiar face, given the assurance that this someone will always be there for you whenever you need a listening ear or a crying shoulder.


well, lets now talk about something happie for a bit. mi darling fuxiang came todae! haha.. he is such a darling luh. he was showering me perpetually with kisses today, all over mi body. mi knees, feet, arms, palms and even mi front double u (but here, only once. haha). how adorable and sweet is he, telling me he wanted to hug me. haha and he said he likes me! XD that genuine and bright smile of his did cheer me up a little though. otherwise, i dont know how mi day would haf turned out to be like. this little angel even asked if i wanted to go to his house. haha.. aint he cute? he carries a bobdog water bottle with him too!! X) i think i shd bring a cam in the future on sat, since there wldnt be any lessons going on.


wow it's alrdi 3 in the morning!
alrite frens.. i gotta say gootnite for now!
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, good night! :)
SWEET DREAMS.

i so love tt song. :D anw wenta work yesterday and things got better! i chatted with the other teacher who actualli has a son with the same age as me! :S haha. hmm, she's friendly and fun.. at least not as hostile as i thought. and guess what? darling fuxiang was there! mi cherubic angel. i hugged him as he sat on mi laps ytd. he was singing this hi-5 song tt goes like this.. "L-O-V-E. i love you. u love me." *squeals!* sweet little boy. oh i love him so dearly. gonna bring a cam there someday and show all of u the children's fotos! they are darn cute can! haha. an indian girl whose name is akirah (sounds like the company name of an electronics company), his best friend i suppose, kept on asking yesterday if he loves her.. so cute luh! kids are simply so innocent. haha im yearning to go out!!! i need some life man. and i miss camwhoring! mi frenster fotos are getting OLDDD. :( haha. just burnt some pizza related videos for mi N2 children to watch tmr.. so tired now. SWEETDREAMS MI FRENS! :D

it had been a busy week.. and YAYY! i finalli get to use the com agn! but guess i will onli be able to blog once in a week in the future though. :( i feel so detached frm the world. :( wonder what all mi friends are doing right at this moment. i miss being with all of them. i miss talking to friends of the same age group as me. shall cover this ltr on. and i haf so mani things to sae tt i haf no idea where to begin..


alrite. firstly, i haf the need to sae tt sometimes, adults should learn from kids. and one of the things is, the willingness to express themselves. last sat when i was at work, this k1 handsome lad called fuxiang, was consistently telling me tt he likes me. okae this may sound kinda thick-skinned, but u cannot believe how happy i was! the feeling of acceptance and appreciation is simply so pleasant. can u imagine how powerful a sentence can be? in addition to his simple smile, it made up mi dae. he said, "ms ng, i like you","ms ng, i want to sit with you","i want to play with ms ng","ms ng, i still like you". i felt so great. i saw the importance of expressing oneself, the magic tt a simple sentence can create. in fact, we should all abandon the hesitance to tell someone how much we appreciate him or her, and brighten up tt someone's dae! :)


yes and next, a piece of goot news! i had an increment in mi pay! :D whoosh! see. i am goot. haha. oops. XD the supervisor said tt it was due to mi hardwork. yayy!! haha im being thick-skinned agn. hehe. oh and let me tell u smth. the new tcher who was employed a day earlier than me had been sacked. i was astonished!! no one told me abt it and i didnt haf a single clue tt all the other tchers had prejudice against her until the dae she left! she didnt even sae a bye to me. so stunning luhh! im so afraid tt one dae, i wld find the tchers backstabbing me too, since they dont talk to me often, unlike how they wld, to one another. i could feel the age gap. are those the right words? in fact, i've been searching for a word to describe the dsitance between the whole lot of them, and me. they chat with one another like old friends, while for us, pure collegue relationship. we simply haf different frequencies. i alwaes dont feel at ease during tchers meetings. and im alwaes the one who gets left out in conversations. perhaps tt constitutes outcaste. well, most of them are married and haf kids aniway. who knoes? this might be the reason. sigh. i miss all of mi frens. it realli doesnt feel goot to be left out all the time. sigh. i feel like im living in a world where all mi frens haf disappeared, where strangers reject mi presence.


oh well, there is alwaes a piece of bad news tt comes tgt with goot news rite? and tt is, this childcare has been sold to a new company which is way more professional than the former one. TADA. here comes the stress. im not trained afterall, nor do i haf a certificate of earli childhood education. so, will such a professional company, which owns 16 other other childcare centres, continue to employ me? why does this hafta come in when i've just began to grow attached to mi job? besides, i haf been given an unfair contract tt requires a 1-mth termination notice even during the probation period, and 2 aft confirmation, when they can ask me to leave anitime, once they decide to and manage to hire a certified tcher. tt is the thing tt has been bothering me. gonna negotiate with the new boss next mondae anyway. i hope tt they will remove the contract since i can onli work for 7 mths or so and i dont wish to leave now.


it seems quite ironic to sae this because i just mentioned tt i feel uncomfortable with the staff. but it is the children who made me enjoy being there. and despite the stressful project approach theme ("pizza" for mi class) coming up, and the fact tt almost all mi energy is drained up evrydae, brainstorming for ideas for the lessons as well as disciplining the children, the happiness attained by interacting with them still hold more importance than anithing else. haha. i just cant bear to part with them now. i will definitely miss their pure laughters, innocence, bright smiles, voices one octave higher than mine, plus the sweet hugs and kisses they gave.


:) wish all mi frens who are taking promos soon all the best!

hi peeps. the entire week was strenuous. whoo!! i almost fainted frm exhaustion when i reached home just now. haha. the autistic child, john, was sooo naughty this week and i had to spend so much energy on him tt when i got home evrydae, i just laid on mi bed and simply dozed off. im even hafing a sore throat now! boohoo. :( must haf been all the shoutings. u noe what? the kids could scream 2 times louder than me! haha.


ytd was national day! i didnt hafta work!! phew finalli one day of rest. haha and someone whose hp no. i didnt noe, sent me a baffling msg abt toto, 4D, condo and national dae greetings!! i was stumped. haha. following on, i went to wengeok's hs to bake cookies! YUMMIE! XD i love cookies!! :D:D:D esp butter cookies!! n baking is so much fun! :D:D:D hee. went home to change aft tt and met up with 4p1 for the class outing in town. i miss them truckloads. but i felt kinda distant from them ytd. i wanted to talk to them sooo much. however, there was this unknown strength tt was pulling me back, leaving me hesitant when mi eyes met with theirs. the moment i saw them, i had a warm and homely feeling. but i didnt noe what tt force was, which made me take a step back. :( sigh. but im sure there'll be a next time. i will definitely not let tt chance slip away agn.


oh oh! and we wenta dhoby ghaut to eat fish n co. DELICIOUS! i had new york fish n chips. the 1st mouthful, and i got hooked. i love the cheese! haha. and magnus was so cool lahh! he went on stage to perform. played "here without u" by 3 doors down, using guitar. and he sang the last part. OMGAWD lah! so sudden. bud he did a great job anyway! hehe. junliang and shengyu did smth realli sweet ytd too. they requested a balloon for chongwee whose bdae is coming soon, from a guy who was twisting balloons away, and let him deliver it to her. had a bit of the "from anonymous" effect. hehe. oh yes i wore mi holly shoes and ended up with numerous blisters. boohoo. haha undeniable, girls hafta pay for their vanity. XD haha.


oh besides, im beginning to doubt mi level of maturity in handling young children. i suppose mi lack of experience and training is the cause of it. like what the senior teacher has said, SAFETY COMES FIRST. however, i cant seem to take note of all the little things tt shd be done to protect the safety of the children. furthermore, they cant seem to learn frm their mistakes whenever i reprimand them. i feel despondent. i find tt the only thing i can do is play with them. the way i manage the class is totally unacceptable i feel. the other teacher taking the N2s mentioned abt making the children like me and respect me at the same time. she emphasized not to appear too gentle as this will not earn their respect and obedience. but i dont feel tt i've achieved it. whenever i look at the way the other experienced teachers handle the children, i alwaes feel helpless cos i dont know what is best for them and how to take appropriate actions in dealing with the way they react. i alwaes seem to do the wrong things.


hmm, nevertheless, i haf to pick miself up and take this as a learning opportunity. perhaps reading up some related books in the lib may help. so.. ENDURE! hafta drill this into mi head all the time. cos the children are simply too lovely to separate from! i wonder how i am gonna leave at the end of march next yr. haha.


i need some life/.

HELLO! oh my my i love mi job!! all those lovely kids. XD there was this 3 yr-old boy called russell who gave me a KISS both ytd and todae just before he left for home!! :D:D:D dont u think that's very sweet? and mi fav kid, xuyang, who is in mi N2 class, will suddenly scramble over, hug mi legs and sometimes just nua there. he was sweet todae. he said, "i help u button ur shirt." AWW.. and he said smth like, "so tired." and he just laid his head on mi laps. he is handsome too luhh!! those longgg eyelashes are simply so ATTRACTIVE. so mani adorable kids. zhanghui, nigel, dexter, ryan. those with mucus hanging frm their nostrils all the time. but they are cute, with the two chubby little cheeks. haha all ah dais (referring to tt ah dai frm la bi xiao xin). kaijun, josephine, gisele, lixuan, valerie, john! all of whom i love. shall show u guys their fotos another time. :D:D:D


sometimes i just love kids for the way they make me smile. and i'll wonder why they haf that kind of magical power. their innocent faces and the little things they do, such as coming over to me, holding mi hands, simply brighten up mi day.


U ARE MY SUNSHINE.
MY ONLY SUNSHINE.
U MAKE ME HAPPY,
WHEN SKIES ARE GREY.
U NEVER KNOW DEAR,
HOW MUCH I LOVE U.
PLEASE DONT TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAY.