I hate how you always reappear in my life when I am all over those sickening emotions, leading a happy life, having nothing to do with you. And I hate how you always have the ability to once again bother me with thoughts of you, leaving me feeling helpless and doubtful :(


Well, it wasnt solely your fault anw. It was a loser dumb girl who allowed herself to step into this shit. But will you help her please, to not miss you all over again? :(

Dear diary,


Damn it. Im upset. Why do my friends seem to be walking away from my life one by one? And this feeling is haunting. Im not someone who needs thousands of friends surrounding me 24/7. Im just sick and tired of feeling so empty. Where are all my true friends when I needed them the most? Where have they gone to? Being immersed in so many happenings and finding endless means to keep myself occupied isnt working. Not at all.


Has anyone ever wondered how amazing it is the way two people who were once strangers can become so close, and yet so incredible how two people can become as distant as strangers when they were once so close. Sometimes I really have to hate myself for being so sentimental. The truth is harsh, and I know it. I know that the reality, is that people come and go. But why, why do I have to be that much sentimental, missing so badly the people whom I was once close to, wondering how they are right now, wishing we were still doing all the silly things we once did tgt, and praying that I could experience once again their physical presence which used to always bring me so much comfort.


BFFs.


Is that purely a label?


Toodles~
WL.

I dont want anything to do with you anymore :(

My many furballs.. Y

Someone once asked if i were to choose, would i rather be a dumb but beautiful girl, or one who is intelligent but ugly. i chose the first, because.. ignorance is bliss.


and sometimes i'd wonder if being plain Jane would make us happier people. perhaps this is true afterall, because happiness is simple.


lies, backstabs, betrayal, manipulation, self-centredness, greed, overpower, fame and many more. wad for? do they bring about real happiness?


and when you know something will hurt tts why you have to forsake it no matter how badly you want it.. well, we cant always have the best of both sides, there's always one that has to be sacrificed. enjoy the little things in life. beliefs like these, i've heard it all and believed in them all..


she said,
"Sometimes you have to move on but at times,
we are all still humans.
We have memories..
Just remember to keep it at being just memories,
and not let it take over you.


Everywhere you go,
you meet new people,
you learn new things,
you create new memories.
Even if you miss the past,
just enjoy reminiscing,
not live in the past.


Go shopping,
or just chill somewhere alone..
Learn to just let people be,
and as long as you are happy with yourself,
it's fine.
In the end,
whether those people really become famous or popular,
it's really not your problem.


Life is all about being happy!
Cos we all die in the end,
why sink into agony and be so miserable?
Laugh things away,
instead of being angry.
Cos everywhere there's beautiful things!"
i agree, i really do..


but im tired, so tired..

loser whom i shall not waste time thinking about,
goodbye,
im gonna move you out from my mind.

Meeting up with mah stoopid sista makes me so happie :) she's never fails to make me laugh with her hilarious rubbish and always manages to motivate me with her words of enlightenment. im so glad im my sista's sista. Y

wouldnt it be nice? to escape from reality and live in our own world of imagination at times..

aww..

A fund raising event for the elderly from Lions Home for the Elders and the Lions Befrienders Service Association, called "Wealth of Love", was held yesterday. It was some sort like a flag day event. Despite having done countless times of flag day, it never fails to remind me each time of how truly caring Singaporeans are.


As you pause to take a look around, many Singaporeans are always rushing and if you were to ask them, some do not even know the reason why they are doing so. When you stop them for a minute or so with a tin can in your hands, sincerely asking if they could just make a small donation of any amount to the needy, even with a smile on your face, what you get mostly in return would be "sorry im in a rush", "sorry no thanks", "-inserts a blank face looking away-". Hello, is taking a few minutes to find a coin from your purse and drop it into the can really wasting like half of your life or something? have you guys ever thought of how the youngsters spent a few hours standing under the scorching sun or splashing rain, hoping to raise money for the needy? dont you even appreciate the selfless spirit that few people have nowadays? if they could take those hours out of their lives to help others, why not a few minutes of your time to find a coin?


And as i stood outside the toto and 4D shop, hoping to get people who may be generous enough to make donations since they have the money for all those, however, i could see countless of uncles and aunties or even young people holding the toto tickets, walking past me as though i was invisible. Is 10cents really that precious to you and yourself? Spare a thought for others. Since you have the money to gamble, hello? does giving away 10cents to the needy who cant work to support themselves too much to ask for?


one of the only heartwarming things is that, i saw a kid who should be around the age of a primary schooler, walking up to me without I approaching, and dropping in a few coins he digged out from his old and dirty wallet. another is a middle-aged uncle who was shabbily dressed and of a dirty appearance with a few missing teeth, came up to me and dropped a 10cents coin into my can. He doesnt even look rich and yet he is sharing his fortune with the needy, which i dont think could be any amount more than working adults.


hello world? where is the love?

Look around for what can be picked from the ground when we fall, so that at least it wouldnt be a wasted fall.


Perseverance,
Efforts,
Investments,
Are what it takes to get what you want.

How do you distinguish care for one you have feelings for, and care for a friend?
Should one still continue to care for the other as much as before after a failed confession or breakup as friends?
Does it mean that after a rejection or a breakup, two should no longer care for each other?
Will there be misunderstandings of kind intentions?
In fear of these misunderstandings,
many restrict themselves from caring,
many avoid facing it at all.
Should the fear be something that puts a stop to showing continuous love and care?


"Will she feel smug because i still care for her despite the breakup?"
"Will he think I still like him because I still care?"
"Or will she eventually realize that im still the one and then learn to appreciate me?"
"Or will it make him fall in deeper if I continue to care?"
"Wait a minute. Will she even care?"
"Hang on a second. Should I even care?"



Yes, we all do know we shouldnt be afraid to show love and care,
even though we cant start a rs,
even though we are now just friends.
But hey, where's the line of distinction?

exams are like finally eventually over! woots. and for the past one week, haf been partying to the fullest to reward myself for all the hard work! :)


last fri: t04 class dinner at madjack! and cca meeting at night
last sat: shopping with nana and st james powerhouse with her and pee! waiting for nana to send us the piccas!
last sun: movie, udders and gooey painting with yc
mon: cambodia briefing
tues: CCA meetings
wed: rachel's bday celeb
thurs: timbre with nana and pee. stay tuned for fotos too!
fri: meetup with ting and peijun's bday celeb!
sat which is today: quarantined by mama at home :(

haha. any resemblance? my cousin and mr yc

happy birthday peijun!

happy birthday rachel!

the unglam foto that mad was so proud of haha

happy birthday pee

shopping with nana! durian strudel and soya bean with pearls! heaven.

out with yc. the gooey painting! sooo many!

since when does hello kitty have a mouth?

MINE!

poor patrick has pimples

DONE!

UDDERS!

MAO SHAN WANG and rum & raisin!

yay he now has a companion!

presents again! from mah sis :)

reindeer riding the cabbage tiger


i met the cow like ah mao again! he's so cute

EEK. flies mating!!!

heart shaped jelly bean!!


so cuteee

i always see cow like ah maos. i dont noe why

chingay!

tata :)