Dear diary,

It's me again. So emotional again today. Is it really just the pregnant hormones or is it normal to feel such anxiety and surge of emotions just before the arrival of a baby?

I'm feeling so upset too, and dreading the whole thought of not having time and energy for myself and losing the intimacy and connection I have with him after bbg is born.

Today I was just feeling so emotional over the thought of us not having enough intimacy and passion already, and what scared me more was the reality check that we are left with not much time before a huge third wheel comes into our lives. Not complaining but fact check - we already have reduced privacy and space ever since his dad came to stay with us, so shouldn't we cherish those days where we have time for two of us even more?

Idk what's really up with me. Don't get me wrong. I'm very appreciative and grateful of everything that I have, that he is willing to do for me, and how much I know he cares for me. It's just that I really miss being in love with him.

Holy shit. Why am I crying so much?

Ironically, I'm feeling so thankful that bbg is accompanying me through these feelings.

Love,

Me