rain rain go away come away another dae. :(
attended p1 chalet on the 4th and it didnt turn out to be as fun as i had expected. initially, i planned to stay overnite for the entire 3 daes. however, i left on the 1st, after the bbq. i tried to get involved but somehow, there was a feeling of unease. a feeling of unwelcome, like it wldnt matter whether or not i was present.
therefore, i questioned myself, shdnt i feel glad to see those familiar faces? shdnt we be sitting down, chit-chatting abt how has evryone been these few mths we havent seen one another? why does it seem to me tt evryone has became so anti-social? like as if we were strangers sharing the chalet room tgt. hey, we haf been classmates for 2 years and are friends who haf not seen one another for like almost a year! evryone just seemed cliq-ish and unlike a class. like there's a sense of awkardness lingering in the atmosphere. i felt horrible.
that was the reason why i left. but to junliang, i realli appreciate it though, for ur effort in organising this gathering. i noe it aint an easy job. that was why when shengyu asked why the few of us were leaving, i cldnt bring miself to say the truth. it wldnt be nice to hear such things when u spent so much time and energy in organising an outing.
*sigh.* i feel emo. i feel a sense of nostalgia. those innocent and carefree school daes were the most unforgettable daes in mi life.. oh and thanks to bazilah, wengeok and changyee for the burfdae presents u gave. that was v sweet of u guys. thanks to guanri too for rmbing mi bdae and wishing me happie bdae on tt dae itself. sorrie yea for not knowing it previously cos mi sis was using the com and shut it down aft tt without teling me there was a window conversation!
Friday, December 07, 2007
Monday, December 03, 2007
hello all! soooooo long since i last blogged. haha but anw, im here agn LAHH! :D
so thurs, on the 29th, was mi bdae!! thanks to all who wished mi HAPPIE BURFDAE. was realli happie and touched when i received those greetings, both through sms and frenster.. so im gonna thank them here, specially on mi blog, NAME BY NAME!
THANKYOO shi wan, jian qin (who msged me at 12 sharp), arthur (who msged me at 12 sharp too), yuting, derek, yu xiang, wen geok, jackson, zhu yin, jiemin, mi sista, justina, hui bin, shihui, jessie, xuan fang, ming wei, carol, jia wei, shufen, sijia, samantha, rong yi, kenneth, chun yi, samson, hui yu and jun jie!! oh and also mi colleagues, xu and yana!
realli appreciate it a lot. thanks for remembering, dearies! :D :D :D and i received a beautiful lovely cobalt blue dress from shiwan, a blue teddy keychain frm xu, an ah xiong holder and cushion keychain frm yana, a bunny plushie (which i think looked like chip and dale) and a huge notebook frm justina, a portable mutimedia player frm daddie and four bright, colourful undergarments frm mummie!! and mi sista is gonna gif me a bag (as promised by her)! haha..
oh and also special thanks to jian qin-- "the one aka love rival".. haha thanks for the thought of planning a surprise burfdae celebration for me with the MI frens. bud i think most of them hate me so they didnt reply u.. *sniffs* HAHAHA!
so, i spent mi dae at the kbox with nana and we had a whale of a time! but too bad she had to leave early cos of BBALL traing. :( she told me that elastic elephant made her pissed and upset so i felt kinda shocked cos i wonder why he had became such a meanie.. maybe he has changed. cant help it anw, people DO change gradually under the influence of their surroundings. *shakes head* HAIYAH. whenever this topic comes to mi mind, i feel kinda depressed cos those familiar faces that i used to noe, seem to haf gone through plastics so they are no longer the same anymore.
sometimes, it realli seems to me tt life is just like a movie, whereby one experiences one obstacle aft another, and becomes stronger after each time the storm is over. then all the happiness and sorrows become beautiful memories of the past, deeply etched in one's mind, the process being the most unforgettable.
anw, i cant wait to start school in np next year!! but april seems so far away. somehow, i feel so much like a hermit crab, hiding in my hollow shell, unaware of what is happening to the outside world.. :( and i realli miss those times in school, wearing school uniform, hafing wonderful frens by mi side, who gave mi luffters, put smiles onto mi face all the time. they were the ones who overcame those tough times tgt with me. i miss those happy moments in school. i saw them bid gootbye to the lonely soul within me. behaving like a kid, irritating teachers and luffing at the silliest things..
ALRITE. enuff for todae! gonna take a nap now cos mi nose is red frm rubbing and is gonna fall off anytime!! hahahahaha.. looking forward to 4p1 chalet nxt tues~ :D
so thurs, on the 29th, was mi bdae!! thanks to all who wished mi HAPPIE BURFDAE. was realli happie and touched when i received those greetings, both through sms and frenster.. so im gonna thank them here, specially on mi blog, NAME BY NAME!
THANKYOO shi wan, jian qin (who msged me at 12 sharp), arthur (who msged me at 12 sharp too), yuting, derek, yu xiang, wen geok, jackson, zhu yin, jiemin, mi sista, justina, hui bin, shihui, jessie, xuan fang, ming wei, carol, jia wei, shufen, sijia, samantha, rong yi, kenneth, chun yi, samson, hui yu and jun jie!! oh and also mi colleagues, xu and yana!
realli appreciate it a lot. thanks for remembering, dearies! :D :D :D and i received a beautiful lovely cobalt blue dress from shiwan, a blue teddy keychain frm xu, an ah xiong holder and cushion keychain frm yana, a bunny plushie (which i think looked like chip and dale) and a huge notebook frm justina, a portable mutimedia player frm daddie and four bright, colourful undergarments frm mummie!! and mi sista is gonna gif me a bag (as promised by her)! haha..
oh and also special thanks to jian qin-- "the one aka love rival".. haha thanks for the thought of planning a surprise burfdae celebration for me with the MI frens. bud i think most of them hate me so they didnt reply u.. *sniffs* HAHAHA!
so, i spent mi dae at the kbox with nana and we had a whale of a time! but too bad she had to leave early cos of BBALL traing. :( she told me that elastic elephant made her pissed and upset so i felt kinda shocked cos i wonder why he had became such a meanie.. maybe he has changed. cant help it anw, people DO change gradually under the influence of their surroundings. *shakes head* HAIYAH. whenever this topic comes to mi mind, i feel kinda depressed cos those familiar faces that i used to noe, seem to haf gone through plastics so they are no longer the same anymore.
sometimes, it realli seems to me tt life is just like a movie, whereby one experiences one obstacle aft another, and becomes stronger after each time the storm is over. then all the happiness and sorrows become beautiful memories of the past, deeply etched in one's mind, the process being the most unforgettable.
anw, i cant wait to start school in np next year!! but april seems so far away. somehow, i feel so much like a hermit crab, hiding in my hollow shell, unaware of what is happening to the outside world.. :( and i realli miss those times in school, wearing school uniform, hafing wonderful frens by mi side, who gave mi luffters, put smiles onto mi face all the time. they were the ones who overcame those tough times tgt with me. i miss those happy moments in school. i saw them bid gootbye to the lonely soul within me. behaving like a kid, irritating teachers and luffing at the silliest things..
ALRITE. enuff for todae! gonna take a nap now cos mi nose is red frm rubbing and is gonna fall off anytime!! hahahahaha.. looking forward to 4p1 chalet nxt tues~ :D