rain rain go away come away another dae. :(

attended p1 chalet on the 4th and it didnt turn out to be as fun as i had expected. initially, i planned to stay overnite for the entire 3 daes. however, i left on the 1st, after the bbq. i tried to get involved but somehow, there was a feeling of unease. a feeling of unwelcome, like it wldnt matter whether or not i was present.

therefore, i questioned myself, shdnt i feel glad to see those familiar faces? shdnt we be sitting down, chit-chatting abt how has evryone been these few mths we havent seen one another? why does it seem to me tt evryone has became so anti-social? like as if we were strangers sharing the chalet room tgt. hey, we haf been classmates for 2 years and are friends who haf not seen one another for like almost a year! evryone just seemed cliq-ish and unlike a class. like there's a sense of awkardness lingering in the atmosphere. i felt horrible.

that was the reason why i left. but to junliang, i realli appreciate it though, for ur effort in organising this gathering. i noe it aint an easy job. that was why when shengyu asked why the few of us were leaving, i cldnt bring miself to say the truth. it wldnt be nice to hear such things when u spent so much time and energy in organising an outing.

*sigh.* i feel emo. i feel a sense of nostalgia. those innocent and carefree school daes were the most unforgettable daes in mi life.. oh and thanks to bazilah, wengeok and changyee for the burfdae presents u gave. that was v sweet of u guys. thanks to guanri too for rmbing mi bdae and wishing me happie bdae on tt dae itself. sorrie yea for not knowing it previously cos mi sis was using the com and shut it down aft tt without teling me there was a window conversation!