im in a very bad mood. cos mi body is still aching like mad all over cos of the physical training during TAS ytd evening. neck, back, waist, hips, arms, thighs and esp mi stomach that hurts so much when i cough and sneeze. furthermore, mi fever this morn hasnt subsided yet. plus those irritating puffy and swollen eyes as usual whenever im running a fever. sigh. wld i haf contacted DENGUE?! omg all the symptoms that include muscleache, fever and bla.


and i think mi bad asthma is back agn aft so many years. cldnt breate properly just now and had to use mi inhaler which i haf not touched for ages. this is so scary can. sigh. im in no mood to do assignments luh but there are still so mani things undone. :( fortunately, there's still smth thankful and that is, this didnt happen on any sch dae so that i cld rest at home without missing any lessons.


hai. and i didnt mean to make last min changes on mi decision of attending tt outing. how i hope tt this fren of mine cld be in mi shoes and try to empathise with me cos he sounded unhappy ytd. well, mi sis said i shdnt bother so much cos i haf the right to decide for the sake of miself instd of acting against mi will just to please the others. because we all live for ourselves and not for others. tt leads me to think if i m a doormat at times.


One of the patterns of behaviour that we often resort to in order to hide our lack of self-esteem.

§ The Doormat
This person is very likeable as she always offers a helping hand or become the problem-solver. She may care for others out of a need to be accepted. Very often, she will put the needs of others above hers to the extent of tacitly accepting victimization (for extreme cases), further draining her energy and self-esteem.


i just love this IS module of mine: "Life management skills" cos it makes me realise and understand mani facts of life. (that was where i got to learn abt the doormat thing btw) oh yes. and on a different note, i met thi guy frm TAS who looks like namchew! tt cute and farnie guy. and also this senior in sch on thurs, whom i used to be infatuated with, when i was in sec sch. i still miss BP and the ppl. sadly, we didnt acknowledge each other cos he didnt seem to recognise me, or perhaps he was just unsure if that was me cos he did stare at me for quite some time before turning away. haha to me, the latter is highly possible cos mani sec sch frens of mine did think tt i've changed alot in terms of looks. (read the previous post and u'll agree with me) haha yea shall go and rest now..


UGLY EYES, GO AWAY! :(