dear diary,

i am honestly so scared of the arrival of bbg. not just because idk what to expect for the delivery process (i have been hearing stories and it sounds like a super scary and painful process), but also if i am able to cope with the life transition. the added roles and responsibilities, the expectations, the uncertainty. the fear that i will lose my indepdence and freedom in other areas of life as i probably would just devote everything to bringing her up.

there are still so many things that i wanna do. to achieve and to experience. i hope i dont ever lose these. and i hope my sanity will be kept in check. i hope that i can stay anchored. stay grounded to my principles, my values, my motivations, my goals.

i can only take a step at a time. and always remember to love myself.

love, me.